Tough Week

Note: This is me getting personal.

Last week was not easy. I started school very confident, with the same spirit I learned to share in an academic (but more than that) setting like the Mountain School. I've piled on a lot of work and commitments in and outside of Riverdale, but it's all things I'm very happy to be involved in. There's no doubt that this all comes from a development of courage to take-risks, one I feel I've been dying for all these years that I finally have. The problem is that some of the realities of Riverdale have started to hit me, and my skin (ugh) and energy are becoming a reflection of my stress. Not good, of course.

In my case, it all seems to come down to confidence. 

Confidence, in one way or another, is linked to familiarity. We're either very sure of who we are as individuals ("Yea! I know I look good!") or of our surroundings (like that kid who's really good at basketball). So here's the source of the problem: I've kind of lost my understanding of Riverdale. I forgot how difficult it is and that there are a lot more than 44 students around so I can't say hi to everyone that walks by me and not everyone is going to greet me. I forgot what it's like to not walk home and to arrive at an empty apartment. I used to live with 8 other girls! It's crazy....and I miss it a lot. But I also see that there are benefits to this disconnection from Riverdale. Now I my eyes are slightly new, so that I know it's okay to speak up and start a conversation with the person next to me. Of course, the challenging aspects of Riverdale will come as a shock (sucks!), but at least I'm seeing more and being more myself than I've ever gotten close to being at Riverdale. There's the good and the bad..

Anyways, I need to stay confident! And I keep seeing too many frowns and tired faces, including my own, soooo LET'S ALL TRY TO STAY CONFIDENT, especially those of us who are going through this college process. It's all very draining, but I think we can all feel a little more comfortable and smile more if we're happy with ourselves and never hold back.

:)

and I shall now proceed to trying my hardest to not take a nap. I'm slowly overcoming this phase..

p.s. HOLA TOMORROW! YUP!