“Be HAPPY!”

That’s what Brett wrote on my hand today. Now, let us forget the fact that she even had to write this is on my hand and focus on that fact that she had to make some gesture to try to calm my anxiety (other than worrying).

It seems that my worries are plastered on my face at all times. I even get asked “What’s wrong?” when I’m completely okay, so imagine when I’m not?! It’s sweet though. My closest homies can always make me forget all the work I have with the most valuable/hilarious moments ever, and I tend to just forget my worries in general when I’m around people. I started up a conversation with Carlos in the Deans’ Office and a whole bunch of people joined in. That was fun and talking to Carlos (a.k.a. The Bible Genius) is always interesting. I was so embarrassed and upset about missing Shakespeare by accident, but Mr. Wellington tried to get me to not worry. I’m such a mess, BUT I’M HANGING IN THERE. I’m okay, I swear. I just have a lot to get done, nothing huge.

I remember Mr. Carver caught me a little stressed some day last year and (of course) asked if I was okay. I wondered outloud why everyone is always asking me that, and he said it’s because I’m always smiling, so when I’m not, there must be something wrong. Haha! What a reputation! I am very prone to smiling (and laughing, as you all may know). Sometimes it’s natural and other times I just understand the power of a smile so I smile at random people. YEA! I would absolutely love to start a SMILE-AT-RANDOM-PEOPLE MOVEMENT!

I’m also remembering now that a few days ago I was talking to a teacher (I wish I could remember who!) who reminded me to “keep smiling” as we departed. That’s the best.

I was explaining to Jacob why I didn’t post anything last night and about my common theme of Bad Days recently and how I didn’t want to put that kind of energy on my blog. But whatever: I’VE BEEN HAVING A SERIES OF BAD DAYS, which have brought to light all the little moments of bliss.

:)

And I would like to congratulate all of the 2nd Semester Seniors who have been able to have careless and stress-free/ restful Riverdale times lately. I’m still waiting for my time.